but I just haven’t been feeling all that great or creative.  I’m in a slump, a hole, whatever you call it.  Feeling very disconnected and bored.  Oh to be Sherlock and be able to shoot at walls, lol.  Haven’t really felt like singing or creating anything.  I need that rush for Christ’s sake, lol!  More piling on the pile…got up this morning to find that our car was stolen!  Just had the wheels stolen off the car a few weeks ago.  I guess they liked the wheels so much they came back for the rest. :P  Serious on the singing though.  Band feels like a dead end.  Thought I was going to have a client or two, but they haven’t contacted me to start their projects yet, and I’ve already submitted my column for next month.   I just have no motivation what so ever, the last creative rush I had was making that Douglas video.  Enjoyed that a little too much as evidenced by the use of slow motion, lol.  There are things that I want to accomplish this year, but I feel like everytime I make up my mind what course/action to take, the rug gets pulled out from under me so I think I’ve gotten to a “why bother”?  state of mind, and I really don’t like being there. I really want to put into motion a project that I have wanted to do for several years, which is put on my own show, but it would take other people’s cooperation and help and that’s where everything usually falls apart. I never have the support that most others have, but I think I’m still going to try to do it somehow.  I think I really have to now. I just wish I had a client or something that would give me something creative to do!!  Feels like my brain is going to waste!!  Oh Lord, I’m kinda sounding like Sherlock aren’t I?  LOL  Even the Sherlock project I was thinking of doing isn’t enough.  I just want happy……..I’m happy when I’m singing and creating…….want more happy!!!   Gotta try to make more happy in my life cause right now, it kinda sucks, lol.  Ok I’ll stop now.  Thanks for listening!